simple but precious

just saying "Thankyou" will make me happy

eventhough with no smile .
eventhough you speak it slowly.
eventhough you're not look at my face
As simple as that .
but you don't .

thankyou .

.

"the greatest pain that comes from love is loving someone you can never have"

i just read this quote on twitter

Demi Allah itu nohok banget :'(

being your bestfriend ..

being your bestfriend..
im thankful because im close to you

being your bestfriend..
i'll always listen

being your bestfriend..
i'll wake up in the midnight just to reply your message

being your bestfriend..
i'll keep my feelings and ignore it

being your bestfriend..
i never tell you the truth about my love story

being your bestfriend..
i'll never ask more

and being MY bestfriend..
you never know that i do love you ..

have a nice journey .. my stepfather :')

my dearest bloggie ..

last friday .. was the most shocking day in my whole life .. i think

my bestfriend .. no, my sister's father was passed away .

it was debby's father ..

previously, i know that he was in hospital. he was sick and im so regret .. i hadn't visit him as soon as possible .

seeing debby's tears fell drown, im felt miserable . i consider his father as same as my father too. our family was very close. like big family .
and i think, debby will moving to sragen and continuing her school at there.

i'll lost my bestfriend :'(
i'll lost my sister :'(
i'll lost my lights :'(


for Pak Yusuf Setia Adi ..

rest in peace :')

:'( still cloudy

today i still brawling with my mom.

i'm got mad with her yesterday and i yelled at her. and, stupidly .. she got mad with me too.

damn, 

my cellphone was broken.

i need to use glasses

i need to buy some books

i haven't paid the tuition fees

but i hate when i'm not wrong but i blamed. 

fak.

okay, i know it's wrong to yelling at your mom. but I WOULDN'T DID IT IF MY MOM NOT BE THE FIRESTALKER.

shit.

i don't know .

what should i do?

apologize? 

bzz~

quit :')

yes ..

i'm QUIT from acceleration class.

in fact, i'm so proud i can be a part of SPLASH. but now i' not SPLASHER anymore :')

oh please, don't judge me like that, i'm not eliminated or something.

this is ..

my own ..

DECISION ..

i know for some people this is wrong. i just want to be .. normal. have many friends, have a good mark, have a good relationship with teacher. 

and i feel guilty and a lil bit regret too. 

but, i believe this is the best way that i can take. 

just pray for me guys. :')

 love you splash :) 

:*

the last day of this month, i'm absolutely normal now :D

march 31th 2o1o 

senny RIP

halohalo bloggie

just a short post.

mengabarkan dengan dukacita bahwa hape saya Sony Ericsson K300i sudah meninggal dunia. Si Senny meninggal karena lupa di cas kemaren dan ketika dicas dia ngga mau nyala. sudah saya berikan CPR darurat dengan menekan2 tombol power dan berpindah2 UGD(baca: colokan listrik) tetep si senny nggamao nyala. oh my .. 

pray for senny please

ps: sori nih nggabisa upload foto mayat senny habisnye ini uploadernya rada error gitu bzz~

ah anyhow, ak bener2 bingung kalo senny sampe mati beneran. bagemana TIDAK .. di dalamnya ada :

- foto2 yg penting

- phonebook yang superpenting

- SMS DARI "PARTO" yang MAHA PENTING

huhuhuhuhuhuhu... :'( sediiihhh banget, apalagi itu ak lupa engga nyalin phonebook ke simcard! ah gembel :'( TT TT TT

tapi sedikitttt penghiburan.

meliat hape putrinya yang uda jebottt sejebot jebotnya rupanya si ayah luluh juga.

new mobile phone will be given if i can graduate to grade 11th.  whhiippiiieeeyy :D

ah, tapi bagemana dg sms2 dari PARTO? 

huhuhuhuhu.. udah tau di sms dari dia itu LANGKA amett T______T

oh well, 

nyoba ngidupin si senny lagii :(

see ya !

xoxo 

pasrah dan putus asa, what do you expect, huh?

saya menulis disini ingin berkeluh kesah dan menye menye sejenak.

hmph, habis ini ak rapotan, tp sekolaku gembel banget. ada yak rapotan habis liburan?

yeps, that's smanela. haha, ironic huh? after we have fun, after we feel relax and free..we should accept some possibility. our test report .

FYI, Saya Adalah Siswa AKSELERASI yang which is menempuh pendidikan SMA selama 2 tahun saja . dan bisa melangkah ke bangku universitas selangkah lebih cepat. yeps, itula promosi dari kelas ini. 

segalanya lebih cepat.

move faster.

go older. -______-

dan as you know, this is not my decision at all. aku ngga mau ngabisin masa mudaku dan masa remaja di SMA yang cuma dateng sekali dengan belajaaaaarrrrrr sampe lumutan. tau ngga betapa sulitnya nyari waktu luang di kelas ini? tau ngga betapa sulitnya buat maen sebentar aja? tau ngga kalo masuk kelas ini tidurmu ngga akan tenang karena kepikiran tugas terus?
oh well, here i am

back to this situaton .. *,*

aku rapotan kayanya hari sabtu minggu depan. setelahhh hari senin-jumat aku LIBUR  karena anak kelas 3 pada UAN.  haha, lihat. ini kebalikan pepatah. bersenang-senang dulu, lalu sakit kemudian.

BAGUS.

aku udah siap kok di eliminasi dari kelas ini. hell. aku bener2 udah MUAK dan pengen mengakhiri semuanya.

pilihan emang sulit. turun atau ngga turun sama aja ngga enaknya.

tapi sapa juga yang mau hidup dari nile katrolan terus hahh?
tai

tau ngga ak udah bener2 dihadapin sama KETIDAK ADILAN BERKALI KALII??!!

sabtu akan jadi hari yang menentukan.

everything will change on SATURDAY

liburan macam apa ini ? 

C-ka...is in the hell now

shika di neraka sekarang.
Ya, kalimat itu nggak salah. Mungkin bukan seperti neraka betulan yang banyak api dan siksaannya, ya ampun amit-amit deh,,,tapi sebuah neraka kehidupan.
Bagi kalian yang punya-someone-, lalu melihat suatu kejadian yang..uuhm..a little annoying, what do you want to do ?
1. Crying
2. Killing him
3. Angry
4. Suicide

well, semuanya sebetulnya bener-bener nggak halal dilakukan. Yang sedikit sah adalah nomor 1, tapi bila kita menangisi sesuatu yang SANGAT-SANGAT NGGAK PENTING seperi itu, kalian mau apa?

Moron banget sih aku bicarain hal-hal kayak gini....
Ya ampun, udah ah...

Buatnya yang baca postingan ini, kalo baca sih,
Maaf...aku nggak bermaksud ganggu kamu kok.
Anggap aja aku seperti parasit, oke.
Hohohoohoo

crashing in my heart...

ya Allah..
konyol sekali aku hari ini,,,
kayak orang sarap dan imbisil..
diberi beragam tatapan yang nggak ngenakin..
lihat beragam pemandangan yang membuat aku-pengen-mati-aja...

Huuufftthhh.....
Apa yang kulihat, sebenernya hanya membuka kenangan lama...
Yang bikin aku meler dan ngocor...
Bagi kalian-kalian teman2ku yang bisa buka blog...maka kalian akan tahu apa yang telah kulakukan.
Sungguh, aku nggak mau bikin temenku sedniri sedih, aku bakal ngedukung aja sih ..
eventhough it makes me cry too...

Aku terlalu lebaii...
Ha=ha=ha...

Jujur aku sedih banget, i'm never feel like this before...cuz i'm almost feel something named,,,,
infatuated.
well, in truth, i hate something...childish like this..
Aku sebetulnya nggak suka sama hal-sal kayak gini, yang bikin aku seperti anak kecoa yang keinjek di kamar mandi..
oke, berlebihan..

Tapi...uuuhhgggg....
ratusan kali..jutaan kali...aku udah ngerasain hal ini...
Nangisin sesuatu yang nggak penting...
Embarassing, huh?

I looks like a looser..
aku benci ngerasa kayak gini,,,

Sekarang aku tahu, kenapa Tuhan menciptakan air mata..
Untuk dikeluarkan orang-orang yang nggak bisa ngeluarin darah ketika merasa berada di titik akhir kebahagiaan.

Selfish..or Childish..?

For the 2nd times..
i'm grateful to God...
i have a nice friend,
and i can fight the SELFISH side of me...
And reach everthing that i want...
For my friendship...
i hope it will never broken by anything....

shika telah sadar

bener kata orang.
hidup itu complicated.

dulu, aku bener-bener nggak tahu harus gimana...harus sedih..seneng...atau mati,
tapi sekarang...

i know the reason..
i know why...
i know i must to forgetting him...

and not thinking 'bout him anymore.
bikin lembaran baru
hidup baru(ceile)
dan....

ya pokoknya gitulah.
SHIKA IS BACCKKK....!!!

sedihh...

orang gila kayak shika juga bisa sediihh...

semua gara-gara cicak!

debby, maafin akuu...jangan kacangin aku lagii....aku pengen minta maaf tapii kmo selalu gmaoo..

MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF
MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF
MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF
MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF
MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF,MAAF

hell yeah....damn it.

what the hell was going on to me...??

every one mistake was finished....another mistake has come...
i know that life was full with mistake..
and stupidity....
but..if we don't have any chance to life peacefully for just one day...
can we share it to survive our life...???

huahhh....
when our dreams are coming true...

why we hope that it's better to be dreams??

========> ask why??<===========









c_ka was sooo confused about this !!